Your heart matters more that anything else in all creation. The desires you had as a little girl and the longings you still feel as a women – they are telling you of the life God created you to live. – J&S Eldredge, Captivating
Do you know that gnawing feeling deep inside you when you see beautiful things unfold?
I always felt that. I feel it after watching a romantic movie. I feel it whenever I see my actor-crushes wooing their pretty girlfriends. I feel it whenever I see football stars arm in arm with their ladies. I especially feel it watching royal weddings. It’s a feeling that creeps from my stomach to my heart and settles in my head. I try my best to shake it off because if it lingers, it adds defect to the insecure person that I am.
I had been a Williamite since grade school. An armload of photocopied William posters and articles hidden in my bedroom would prove that. I refuse to throw them out. They remind me that like every little girl, I too have passed through that stage were I dreamt of a prince to come sweep me off my feet someday.
Last night as I watched the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge leave Westminster Abbey to cheers from the crowd, it amazed me how the usual wave of envy didn’t come. Yes, it didn’t come. Instead, a new feeling flooded me and it was good.
God in his love, gave me my own version of Kate and Leopold. He gave me my own Derek, Piolo and Beckham. He gifted me with my own William. A few months from now, I’m gonna have my own version of that red carpet. That’s the new good feeling. As I watched Prince William smiling at Kate, I see another face, a familiar face I have learned to love through the months. Envy has turned to excitement.
I may not be as elegant and lovely as Kate is, but God has given me a prince who makes me feel just as princessy as she is. I am blessed, I have a Father who is the King of Kings.
That still makes me royalty.