VLOG 4: Visiting lola, Hypomania Explained (Part 2)

Read part 1 here

Hi, everyone! Here is part 2 of me sharing a glimpse of the hypomanic side of my bipolar life. Join me again, as I continue annoying my grandmother and cousins up in Natonin, Mt. Province.

In this video you’ll find out what happens to me when I don’t sleep, why I am the “best ate in the world”, what hypersexuality means, why this may be the last time I visit the mountains and what “yayak” means.

Watch the full video here:

MY HYPOMANIA SYMPTOMS

Read part 1 here

4. DECREASE NEED FOR SLEEP

  • Functional even without sleep
    I can go days, even weeks, without proper sleeping at night.
  • Not feeling tired
    Even when I try so hard to sleep at night, I can’t.
  • Power naps to recharge
    I only need a few minutes to an hour of power naps to get going.

5. INCREASED SELF-ESTEEM

  • Extreme confidence
    All my insecurities are forgotten and I’m convinced I know what I’m doing and I can do everything.
  • Feelings of grandiosity
    Sometimes, I feel I’m on top of the world!
  • Decreased inhibitions
    I have no reservations, no filter and sometimes I say things I do not mean.

6. EXTREME EMOTIONS

  • Increase in irritability
    I get easily annoyed or angry.
  • Intense sensitivity
    I feel excessive sensitivity towards sounds, people or my internal emotions.
  • Hypersexuality
    Sometimes I feel an increase in sexual desires. This leads to irrational romantic or sexual behaviors

7. RISKY BEHAVIORS

  • Irrational and out-of-character
    People with the same mood disorder as me may show symptoms like having impulsive sex, gambling with life savings, spending big money, or making major life-changing decisions without a back-up plan.
natonin mountain province

Well, I didn’t know that this was the last time I’d come home to see my grandmother alive. Lola died early last year 2019 when I was out of the country, so I didn’t even get the chance to be in her funeral. These videos are the last of the memories I have of her.

Before lola died, I was able to tell her about my mental health condition. She took it graciously, cried with me and said, “wat sapay koma ta lomaylayad a, apo” (I wish that you become happier).

natonin mountain province

She prayed for me and that was the last of our hugs and kisses. Until I see her again.

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brigida bangilan10 things I learned from my grandmother  

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10 ways to spoil your grandparents

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Funeral videos from AARONOTICZ 

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